kerryisamazing

Sat, 03 Oct 2009 18:48:36 GMT

yeah i never update, as i figured i wouldn't haha.

i only use this really for posting in a survey community out of boredom.

Mon, 06 Apr 2009 06:09:20 GMT

Soo monday i went to the rangers vs devils game at madison square garden, it was my first "garden experience" and it was soooo good, the rangers won 3-0. =] i've gone to one other rangers vs devils game..but it was at the devils home and we lost haha. but that was still an awesome game. anyway, i got wayyyy too drunk that night and missed school the next day =[ i dont want to be that person. i need to learn to control my drinking, seriously.

nothing else really has happened. friday i felt super depressed all day, and i dont really know why. i cried a lot and was just sooo miserable. i've never felt that way..it was so random and just weird. and then i felt fine the next day.. so idk. i just wanted to like run away and get away from my life and start over and be someone different... i mean i feel like that from time to time..but it was just such a different, odd feeling.

i went to mall for the first time in a while on saturday, got a few things and didnt spend nearly as much money as i thought i would. then i went to walmart today and actually got a bathing suit already, sweeeeet. haha. its not my favorite but its good enough, i still have a couple from last year that are good. hopefully i'll put my bathing suits into much more use this year. i hardly got to go to the beach last year =[

i ordered my bamboozle tickets finally! i'm excited =] probably mostly excited for the used! <33 and nfg & tbs. those were the first few bands i realllly got into (besdies good charlotte, hahaha) i'm excited for a bunch of bands..hopefully it'll be a really good time. and i'm going to the hoodwink this year, which i'm super excited for..covers are usually a good time =]

hmmm yeah i think thats it. schools going really well. i got a 99.7 average for my first module (idk if i posted that already) soo yeah. and i'm getting more comfortable with it.

Sun, 29 Mar 2009 15:41:43 GMT

I feel like so much has gone on since the last time i updated, but not really.

I finished my first module at school..idk if they're all only 4 weeks. but i got a 99.7 average =] and i'm enjoying it more and more as the days go on. i'm just sick of traveling by bus/train back and forth haha.

hmm lets see..the week of st.patricks day, all of my friends were home for spring break so got to spend some good times with them =]

went to the high school to see the musical because 2 of my younger cousins were in it, they did the wedding singer and it was actually a lot better then i had thought it would be. it was really funny/cute. but it kinda made me feel old haha because they said something a little provocative and i was like whoa they let these little kids say those things? then i realized the seniors are only like 2 or 3 years younger then me. but i was thinking about the freshman/sophmores and they seem like little kids to me already... and i think back to when i was that old and i felt like i was so old and mature. but now i think back and i really wasnt haha. its funny to think about now, especially since my little brother and a couple of my cousins are that age now. like i remember being a freshman and the sophmore guys seeming so much older but now i look at my brother and his friends and i'm like how could i have thought that?? haha. its weird growing up.

last sunday i went on an adventure with a few friends to climb some "mountain" in seacaucus one of my friends always goes to.. and we got in trouble twice for trespassing..and she never has. i will make it up there one day though..!! then we went to some run down resevoir in the middle of jersey city that we had to climb over a wall then crab walk down a wall to get to then manage to walk through rocks and bushes and trees and broken down branches to a nice spot by the water to smoke...it was very nice and peaceful. then had to go back through all of this while high...it was quite an experience haha. we then had to crawl up a wall..and then jump off and it seemed like 10 feet and it was like 2 lol. i'm glad i can still go on these random, probably stupid to most, adventures and enjoy it without being too paranoid.

hmm then this week didnt really do much. friday i sat around a fire in my aunts backyard for a little..then traveled to hoboken to go to some frat party only to come right back home 'cause the line was too long and i forgot my id to prove i was 18 anyway. then last night i went to my aunts again 'cause my grandma was cooking dinner.. played some game and participated in earth hour..it as actually quite nice 'cause we were all sitting in candle light drinking/talking. me my older brother, cousin and her boyfriend decided to go to nyc then we ended up just driving around there and the drove all the way to belmar because my brother has never been to the jersey shore..we drove there and drove right back haha. it was so random.

Mon, 16 Mar 2009 01:08:34 GMT

Second week of school was good, i did my first whole body massage. And i've been doing pretty well with everything, so i'm excited. But i'm already sick of the traveling back and forth lol.

My best friend is home for spring break =] yay haha.

Friday night some family came over and we drank and played cards, then Tara and Lizzie came over and we drank some more and played kings haha. Then we went over to Tara's to hang out with her brother and his friends and Frank came over and his hair is insane but i love it lol. good times.

Saturday was the pub crawl in my town, and my brother and cousin asked me to meet them at a bar by our house that I know doesn't ID so went there and planned to only hang out for a little bit..that didn't happen lol. A stupid fight broke out lame. Then continued to another bar, and it was so weird seeing everyone from high school that i like never talked to haha hung out there for a little bit. Then on to the next bar and i made Tara come 'cause everyone was there and they weren't checking IDs either soo yeah her and her brother came. It was a good time, but then i got too drunk and left with some guy..that was a bad idea lol..but it was still fun so whatever.

Sat, 07 Mar 2009 20:15:44 GMT

first week of school - interesting. leaning more towards good interesting, rather then bad haha.

went to a nice bar/restaurant on 47th (the mean fiddler) last night with dad, older brother, 3 cousins and one of their boy friends. fun stuff.

then we all went over to roseland to see the dropkick murphys and it was GREAT. they did a cover of bruce springsteen's badlands..amazing <3. definately worth the money i spent.

its such a nice day out.. i'm gonna go wander around with a friend then just chill and drink at my house later probably.
soooo good weekend so far <3

a friend had a mixed cd last weekend with a my chemical romance song on it.. and i forgot how much i used to like haha. soo thats what i'm doing now. i love going back and listening to bands i used to be obsessed with and realizing how much i still like them even if i dont listen to them as often.. its nice. haha.

ok i should go get dressed now and stop wasting my time online.

Wed, 04 Mar 2009 00:05:48 GMT

this is about my millionth online journal that i swore i'd update. its been about a year and 9 months since i last updated, nice.

well i've learned a lot since my last entry.
i graduated high school. with no intentions of going to college yet.
got a job in a daycare through someone (tara) in my circle of friends.
became best friends with her.
she along with my 3 other closest friends from here, who're all a year younger than me graduated hs and went away to college.. leaving me still here.
in the beginning got really close to the furthest one (she went to florida) and also realized more and more why me and tara became best friends and this short distance made us even closer. not so close to the other two, and as time goes by not with the third one either.
became really close with an old "best friend" from freshman/sophmore year at a time when we needed someone old/new in our lives again, its worked out really well so far. i'm glad we found each other again.
let a boy i wasnt even in a relationship with fool me badly and let him take advantage of me and almost break me, until i realized thats stupid and got over it and learned a great deal about myself and the way some things work out.
got two tattoos. my first one being a shamrock with tara..which came from a drunken idea of getting them on our asses.. but i got mine on my hip because i'm allowed to have one and didnt want to hide it, unlike her.
then got my second one a week later which i've been planning since my 2 friends died and carries a lot of meaning. everything happens for a reason. across the top of my back.
realized how miserable my job at the daycare was making me, and needed to figure out a way out of it.
remembered how interested in massage therapy i was as a senior in hs, got information about it.
made an appointment with an addmissions representative, filled out a ton of paper work.
got a golden retriever puppy (about 12 weeks), Shea, who likes to pick on me and make me cry so far. hes adorable though ha.
started my first day of school today, in a class where i'm the only new one..and already have a quiz my second day, and a test friday. and got hit on?? its going to be a bit of a challange but i'm excited to be on the road to a career that really interests me. =]

Mon, 18 Jun 2007 03:10:11 GMT

it's so hot! gofjaklgjklf;

so today, i got a facebook message from melissa's dad. it was so upsetting, he was telling me how it meant so much to them that i went down their for the service and how its hard for him especially today 'cause it was fathers day. i found responding so hard to do.

i still cant believe they're gone, its so weird. like randomly i'll think like oh i cant wait to go visit them in florida, and then its like ohwait. no i wont..i'll never visit them..again. until i die and there is an afterlife.

this weekend two different people, who havent seen me since the accident told me they were sorry and how crazy it was. both times i tried so hard not to cry, its soo hard at times. like at the most random times i'll start think about them, sometimes i wanna laugh other times i wanna break down and cry..but i'm trying to be strong. i need to be. idk why i need to be, i just do.

i was soo excited to be going down there this summer, after three years of not going down, and then boom everything changes. its soo hard to believe still. i feel at times i'm still in denial, that somehow someone will tell me they're still alive...even though it's been three weeks. wow.

so for anyone who reads this and doesnt know what i'm talking about, three weeks ago two of my friends from florida (who i was best friends with when i lived there, and was still very close to both of them) died in a car accident, no alcohol or anyting like that. just an accident, she lost control of the car for some unknown reason. hardest moment in my life going to their service and seeing melissas parents, brother and boyfriend who i had yet to meet, but he knew who i was. and mollys mom and brother, who i hadnt seen since the last time i was there (i used to "go out" with him) it was so good to see them all, but i'd much have rathered it be under a circumstance where melissa and molly were actually physically there.

ok soo enough about that. i need to sleep. i have exams tomorrow and tuesday is the last day of them<3 my last hs exam EVER! yessss. so exciting.

so my senior english teacher just got fired for sleeping with students. just what our school/town needs more attention from the news. niceee. one of the kids she slept with was in my english class, hahaha. it was four boys in total (that people know about anyway) and there was 4 other guys she pursued but didnt go through w/ anything.

well i'm done now.
i really need to get more friends, so my rambling doesnt just go unread.